Kreativ Blogger Award !!

This is a huge surprise to me ! It makes me very happy so I thank you Gerardine for nominating my blog. Thank you also for providing a blog to read which is a source of wonder and mystery : http://gerardinebaugh.wordpress.com

The Rules for accepting this award are:

1.Thank the person giving you this award.

2.Copy the award to your blog

3. Place a link to their blog

4.Name 7 things people don’t know about you.

5.Nominate 7 Bloggers.

6.Place a link to those Bloggers.

7.Leave a comment letting those Bloggers know about the award.

7 things people don’t know about me…

  1. I like to go to bed alone so I get to sleep without snoring sounds. But I still love when he comes to bed. I love sleeping next to him.
  2. At the moment, I am procrastinating so much  I fear I won’t be able to do all my class reading in time. I’m usually a disciplined and organized person.
  3. I don’t like eating oranges. Too much trouble, too much potential for leakage.
  4. I love weird words (they are to my ears) like Moist which made me giggle like a 5 year-old when I would watch Dead Like Me. Also, fluid, flabbergasted, and others I can’t recall at the moment.
  5. I intensely dislike meetings and team work. Nobody knows how much I do. I love my work because I don’t have to talk to anyone, I don’t depend on anyone (almost) and I have learned so much (on my own) that noone else knows what I do or how I do it…my boss is freaking out because she fears having to replace me. Well, I’m not gone yet.
  6. I used to blog on Dandelife where there is no fancy tool bar, no Kreativ blogger award, no statistics. Just a neat timeline.
  7. This blog was created in May or June 2009 after I was fed up with not being able to go into Dandelife to write my stuff. I have not regretted it even though I had to build a new readership. Hum. I still don’t have a readership per se.

7 Bloggers, not easy to choose ! Many blogs I read are only in French. Also, after reading one of Mel’s post on Delurking, I think I’m a lurker. I may be on your blog everyday and you might not know about it…as in the case of Mel, see #6. I go there every day ! All the blogs listed are blogs I find funny and/or inspiring and they make me think and laugh and go forward with plans, dinner, posts, life. DebOnTheRocks and SassyMonkey contribute to BlogHer also and are very good reads. I consider those bloggers as brilliant !

  1. On Tap for Today
  2. Sharon’s Blog on Sister Village
  3. Culinspiration
  4. Sassy Monkey also the author of the blog Sassymonkey reads
  5. DebOnTheRocks
  6. Stirrup Queens
  7. OneLadyInTheWorld S. is my cousin and she needs to be encouraged to post more often and please ask her to post about her many adventures in the universe of buses, metros and trains. She takes beautiful pictures ! She is an endless source of stories in person. I wish she would write them on her blog ! I also wish she could write them in French and she could install a translator and then everyone could read her stories. She was my inspiration to buy a Kodak and start taking photos. Blame her for my restrrom posts. She created a monster. 🙂

Almost finished, presque fini

J’ai presque fini de copier mon ancien blog ici. I’m almost finished copying my blog here.

I don’t know if I should continue in French or in English. D’un côté, je me réhabitue à écrire en français et j’aime ça. Même que j’écris plus en québécois. D’un autre côté, I like wrting in English because I’m sure to get more readers and it’s easy for me.

Sigh soupir. Bientôt je pourrai poster des nouveaux billets, que des nouveaux billets.

Self Interview 4

4 octobre 2007

So…what’s new ?

Well, after a couple days where we had more work, we have « one of those days » where the system’s down and we have no requests.

You don’t seem too depressed over it ?

Nope ! I go on Facebook and I go on Dandelife and write my life away !

I saw that you write in French and English ? How come ?

Well, I was raised in a bilingual family. Dad would speak to me in English and I would answer in French. My Dandelife is bilingual because I have some written journals that are in French that I copy but my everyday life is written in English.

But why English ? Don’t you work and live in French ?

Yes. But sometimes it just comes that way and at other times it’s better in English, I know people I know don’t understand it so…

You don’t want people you know to understand what you write ? Why ?

No I don’t. Because sometimes it doesn’t concern them, sometimes I prefer to have my private garden. That’s why some of my stories are private.

If you want to have a private garden, why do you write on the net ? It’s a bit contradictory !

Not really. It’s easier to share with strangers. Plus, I do want to have privacy from people I know but I still want to share with others. Just not everyone I know.

But why ?

Because !! A lot of people around me are better that way, not knowing who I really am. They prefer it this way, they don’t want to know. And I don’t want some people I know to « know » everything about me. I know it’s confusing.

You have family on Facebook who could read you on Dandelife, right ?

Yes. It would be alright. I think that in most cases family members are the ones that are the most close-minded about who we are. They still see us the way they did when we were all very young. My mom is still astounded that I eat vegetables. She still sees me as a little girl who pouts when she puts a plate in front of me. I hated meal time. So I think that reading some things we write is a good way for family to get to know who we are !

You really are kind of bipolar ! This and that, this pole but this pole too.

I hate it when you remind me of it ! My therapist always brings it back. Why do you do this ?

Don’t you think that the way you like both extremes of things is a way of being bipolar ?

Ungh. Yeah. Why not.

You are so reluctant to admit that even if you are not ashamed of being bipolar, your personality is bipolar.

Yes. I. Am. I am not only bipolar, you know ! It’s true I have a tendency to like both extremes of things but it doesn’t mean I am and will only be a bipolar person. I’m not the only one like this.

Of course not.

And I am trying to focus so I come to a certain milieu, a middle.

Hum. Hum.

You drive me nuts !

Well isn’t  true that you will be volunteering with kids ?

Yes ?

But while you are in councelling in orientation to begin new studies, you are considering thanatology ? Virology or immunology ?

Yes…

Well…they are two different poles. Kids are life, freshness, new beginning. But what you are looking at to study and maybe have a new career is death and sickness.

So what ? Maybe I don’t want to do the same thing all over my life. Maybe I like having contraries and contradictions. Big elephant, small mouse. I like challenges, I like movement.

Okay then !

4 Noble Truths

I don’t even know what I’m still doing up…oh yeah Human pets on Facebook. Plus I always seem to find extra stuff to write here (sur Dandelife). Who knew my head was so full of « stuff » ?

So being tired and having my eyes burning from too much computer time I will still attempt at analyzing my virtues by looking at the Buddhist virtues.

Right Viewpoint – Realizing the Four Noble Truths
No. Not virtuous here, I don’t know what the four noble truths are. Yet.

Right Values – Commitment to mental and ethical growth in moderation
Hum. I try but still not enough.

Right Speech – One speaks in a non hurtful, not exaggerated, truthful way
Something tells me that by committing the sin of Anger, I am not being virtuous of Right speech because I really can be hurtful to some people. And I know some people who take everything personally and I just shrug it off eventually. I tire of being careful of everything I say.

Right Actions – Wholesome action, avoiding action that would do harm
I do no harm by my actions. Most of the time.

Right Livelihood – One’s job does not harm in any way oneself or others; directly or indirectly
I work in a library ! They only harm that can be done are paper cuts and too much information ! Et le lancer de la taqueuse !

Right Effort – One makes an effort to improve
YES ! I have that one !

Right Mindfulness – Mental ability to see things for what they are with clear consciousness
Is it the same as being a cynic ? I am a realist but I can be paranoid…which is not having a clear mind.

Right Meditation – State where one reaches enlightenment and the ego has disappeared
Where the ego has disappeared. Not there yet !

It’s settled then, by looking at these I’m not virtuous. I’ll have to look at other virtues to see if I’m okay or goign even MORE to Hell.

Un ex blogue sur moi

Hé oui. Un ami m’a signifié qu’un de mes ex bloggait sur Dandelife et m’a raconté la belle aventure de notre très grande mésaventure…que j’ai pu lire moi-même.

Inspirant. Vraiment.

Dire que je suis déçue ne couvre même pas l’étendue de ce que je ressens. Je suis plus qu’en colère. Je suis triste, je regrette de lui avoir donné une chance à ce gars-là. Il n’en méritait pas. Je suis tellement écoeurée que j’ai eu le goût de :

  1. Pitcher une brique dans sa vitre.
  2. Faire imprimer l’histoire, d’aller à sa job et de la lui remettre sans dire un mot.
  3. D’aller à sa job et de lui crier SALAUD de tous mes poumons en lui lançant des livres.
  4. De coller l’histoire sur sa porte de maison et d’écrire à l’encre indélébile sur sa porte « Je sais où tu restes! »
  5. Mais, surtout, j’ai le goût de brailler. Le gars fait pitié. Il m’a demandé pour sortir, j’ai dit oui. Je lui ai donné une chance et il a fait ce qu’il a fait de mieux, il a tout saboté. Il ne pense pas qu’il mérite d’être aimé. J’ai jamais rien pu faire pour lui.

Je peux rien faire. Dans une lettre que je ne lui ai jamais envoyée, je lui ai rendu ses émotions négatives que je ne voulais pas garder.

Mais, moi. Je me suis sentie tout croche pendant je sais pas combien de temps à cause de lui. Maudit que ce gars-là est Troll, Néanderthal, il mérite que je l’efface de ma vie !!!

ndlr : C’est ce que j’ai fait. Je ne lui ai plus reparlé, je l’ai rayé de ma vie.