Lundi reconnaissant

  1. Sookie Stackhouse et ses aventures. J’ai lu 3 romans de la série depuis mercredi. C’est un divertissement incroyable.
  2. Le soleil est enfin sorti ce matin.
  3. Ma boss comprend à quel point c’est important que j’ai l’information nécessaire pour faire mon travail.
  4. J’ai eu 92% dans mon cours de psychopathologie.
  5. J’ai passé du bon temps avec mon chum en fin de semaine.
  6. Je constate que c’est facile de parler avec lui sérieusement.
  7. Ça fait un an qu’on vit ensemble et je pense que ça se passe bien.
  8. J’ai dormi 8 heures la nuit passée.
  9. Mon chat est resté tranquille toute la nuit.
  10. Le cours de zumba a fait du bien !
  11. Grâce à StumbleUpon, j’ai découvert StereoMood et NPR.

Second Psych homework done

It’s done ! I have sent it to the instructor. I have heart palpitations, cold hands and a feeling like I’m on a bipolar high. I feel like cords inside of me are tight and I could scream any moment. My second psychology homework !

It is a huge deal to me because I love learning but after getting my diploma in 1998, I just couldn’t go back to school. I died a little inside at the thought of it. I know we don’t have to go to school to learn but I wanted to learn about things I couldn’t by myself. The challenge of passing the class is a motivation to keep going when I feel comatose. Comatose from the information overload I’m getting.

I hesitated for years and I even went to see a school councilor. I was tested, we talked. It appears I should be in science ! That’s where you see how your role in a family determines your futures sometimes…my family thought of me as an intellectual and artist. I hated math because my mom had hated it too and thought it was hard. So I took the basic classes in high school and took the optional classes of drama, arts and beauty classes. No physics, advanced math or chemistry.

I went to college in arts before deciding I wanted to be a library technician. But my tests showed I could have easily gone into science in college (if I had done the prerequisite). And what appealed to me was microbiology like my mom used to do. She’s retired and…a volunteer guide in a museum. Isn’t it ironic ? She’s the arty type.

I didn’t want to go in psychology or sexology because I felt it was my pattern of wanting to classify everything, explain everything. I guess I’m not far off as a lib tech because everything in its place, a place for everything. In psychology or sexology, an explanation for everything, everything has an explication whatever the theory is. But I chose psych because I would have to ditch my job to go back to school if I want to go in science. And I can do psych classes in my home instead of at the university.

So I finally chose. I registered at a school that offers only home classes and I chose a short program in personality psychology. I love it. I take only one class at a time or I wouldn’t have time to go to the gym, work, write, read, cook etc. I have lots of free time because the boyfriend goes to night school too.

I had 90% in my first homework. I hope I get a good mark on the one I sent yesterday. I’m scared as hell to discover I didn’t understand a thing and that I’m way off in my understanding of phenomenology and theories based on learning. I’m scared to discover I’m even better than I thought. I want to exceed my expectations. I want to be the best. But I can’t compare myself, alone in my kitchen. I just really want to be great.

I guess that’s why I chose phenomenology as a theory. Carl Rogers said that humans strive for self-actualization. I’m the best example there is.

Premier cours en documentation…passionnant.

Écrit dans mon cours de TechDoc en août 1994

Je suis dans mon premier cours. J’ai eu 10 minutes pour aller chercher une bouteille d’eau. Là, on va voir un vidéo. À date, c’est pas super écoeurant.

C’est pas grave, je vais m’en remettre.

Ouf. Une chance que j’ai pas basé mon avenir professionnel là-dessus !