What does between mean to me right now ?
Well, right now, in this moment, I am between being a couple with my boyfriend, being a girlfriend and a mom. Between a couple and a family. I am between being a working woman and a new mom on maternity leave. Between being highly functional and in control and being unsure of my decisions…and let’s face it, slightly out of control.
I have been between many things. Between the job I wanted to get out of and the new job I wanted. Between feeling miserable and on the way to feeling okay.
It could be a bad thing to be between but it’s not. I don’t feel uncertain and scared. I feel like I should enjoy what I have now and I live in expectation of what comes next. The new colleague I will have to train so the two colleagues will be able to function without me, the baby I will have to train to become a functioning baby, kid and adult, the couple I will have to return to so my love life doesn’t end with the baby, the family life I have denied myself for so long…
Between two good things.